Achievements. Growing up with siblings who're extremely competative and are over achievers, I immediately adapted to that same culture, and had the mentality of winning. I hate losing and making mistakes, or getting embarrassed. I luxuriate in crossword puzzles, word games, trivia, watching the news, and watching ESPN.

In terms of abilities, I believe that I am multi-talented, and that I can do great in anything if I put my heart and soul into it. I don't step on people in order to get what I want. However, I don't exactly take satisfaction in failing. All these things led to insecurity and doubt. I had so many questions with no answers. I didn't like that fact that there are people who will always be better, and that you can't always be number one.

When it comes to appearance.. Well, it's a different story. You can't really change your looks (unless surgery, but the outcome is not always accurate) so you just have to deal with it. I find myself too skinny, but I'm working on that. I guess I worry about my appearance most of the time, especially when I break out or something.

With acquisitions: cellphone, iPod, cars, etc. All these WON'T LAST. When you die, you can't take all these things with you. So it's better to store up treasures in Heaven than on Earth.

How about associations? Sure, I seek people's approval, and I am afraid of rejection. I believe that I can mingle easily, and have a lot of friends; but truth be told, ALL of my friends have failed me, at least once. Some more than once. People will fail you, and sometimes they can betray you.

I realized that if I focus on these areas too much, I would probably get pulled down, along with my self-esteem. I shouldn't get my importance on appearance and achievements. I should be like an eagle soaring high-- and ALONE. The geese who fly together don't usually get very high. But eagles, they reach their goals. They excel.