Our results for the diagnostic test were given today. I felt like a total idiot because I failed. I was astonished because my highest mark was in Filipino. I even got HIGHER than Joaquin. That's hard to believe, because I'm not very good in that subject.

Anyway, I've been having nightmares lately. Last Saturday, I dreamt that a corpse was chasing me with a butcher's knife in its hand. The other night, I dreamt that I had fallen off a building. I had a hard time sleeping after that. I usually wake up in the middle of the night, and I can't go back to sleep anymore.

I don't understand why I've been having bad dreams. It freaks me out. I pray before I go to sleep, and I can't help but wonder why all these were happening in my subconscious. It's pretty dreadful because when I'm caught up in my nightmare, I can't seem to wake up.

They say that if you pinch yourself, you're able to wake up. I tried, but it didn't work. I can't seem to sleep either. I toss and turn. It's a long process, then I eventually fall asleep.

Aside from my sleepless nights, I can't help but worry. My friend(I won't mention his name) got his heart broken recently. He got rejected BIG time, and he's been taking anti-depressants (Valium, sleeping pills, etc.) and I'm afraid that he might overdo it. I hope not.

I'm going to start praying for him. A lot of kids are into drugs, especially at a young age. They get an overdose and sometimes experience relapse or heart failure. Many parents lose their kids because of drugs. It's a total pity, because life has so much to offer you, but you just waste all the opportunities due to the hallucinations and numbness that depressed people yearn for.

I know that I'm never ever going to try drugs. I won't succumb to peer pressure. I've tried drinking, and I never liked it. I never tried smoking. I don't see the point. Why give in to the sinful ways of the world?

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