I had my auditions yesterday, and it was a success. Why? Because I didn't get the chance to sing. They just interviewed me and gave me a brief picture of the entire ministry, etc. I realized that most of the rehearsals and practices imposed a great conflict on my schedule. Eventually, I backed out. My dad told me to try again next time.

At least I tried and I showed up. My practicing did not go to waste, because I was able to vocalize and rehearse.

Today, I just finished filling out my U.P. application form. I'm still praying about my future course, so I left that section blank first. I would fill it up soon. I realized that time's running out, and I would eventually have to face my greatest fear: entrance examinations.

I've been hearing endless stories about people who didn't make it to any university, and they had to settle for a college instead. You're only given ONE chance, and with that chance offered, you have to make it. Otherwise, who knows where you'll end up.

There are so many students, but not enough universities to accomodate them all. It's still summer, and people are supposed to enjoy their summer vacation, but this one has been really hectic for me. I've been studying, hoping to absorb everything. It's not exactly cramming, but I do hope that I'm able to retain everything I've been learning.

I know I'm still young. Applying for a university is just a small percentage in life. It's probably just the beginning, and I still have a long way to go. School is different from work. Sure, high school prepares you for life.

But when you're in high school, it's either you pass or you fail. When you pass, it brings victory to you and your family. When you fail, you come home with your report card that brings tears of sorrow to your parents' eyes. Then you strive to do better.

Work on the other hand is a different story. Having a job is difficult, because you have to maintain a certain index or your boss would have to fire you and get a replacement. When you don't reach your quota, you don't just fail. You wouldn't have money to buy food, to pay your taxes and rent, and other bills.

Life sure is tricky, but it's not impossible. My aunt called from Singapore the other night. I haven't talked to her for years. She said that she had a hard time keeping a stable job there. She's already on her third, I think. But despite the negative circumstances she's been facing, she still manages to have a sunny disposition.

While we were talking on the phone, she didn't sound like someone who was being challenged by life. She sounded very wise, and hopeful. She's a good encourager, and her faith in God is stable and consistent. She said that she gets lonely sometimes in Singapore, but God has always been there for her to keep her company.

She mentioned that during her train ride in the mornings, she reads her Bible. She said that both Singapore and Philippines are two lucky countries, because there is no discrimination against Christians. In China, they already banned people from bringing their Bibles. In America, if you are seen reading your Bible, other kids would probably laugh at you or something.

That really struck me, and I realized that I should be contented and that I should make the most out of my spiritual walks with the Lord. I've been praying for my aunt, and I really miss her. It's been four years now, and I do hope she can come home to visit. God improved her character and I believe that someday, God will use her mightily.

God has a wonderful purpose for each and everyone of us. He has big plans for the Philippines too. And someday, he will use us in accordance to his will.

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