I did not go to school today, because I was feeling weak and sick. I had fever and a really terrible sore throat. My nose is clogged too.

I felt disappointed because I was looking forward to go to school today, not because of my classmates but for my education. Last night, I worked dilligently on all my assignments that were due today, making sure that every homework I did deserved a perfect score. I also reviewed my notes to prepare for any pop quizzes or oral recitations.

To my dismay, I woke up this morning with a painful headache. My sister took my temperature and made me stay home and rest. She didn't want me to get worse, or to catch the AH1N1 virus due to my low resistance. So much for my hard work.

My grades and achievements are the reasons that make me go to school. If it weren't for those two important factors, I would've dropped out in a second. They hold me and they prevent me from breaking down.

Rather than sulking and feeling sorry for myself, I push away my disappointments, longings, and bitterness, and immediately do my homework, study for quizzes, and read in advance. I feel elated once I accomplish everything written in my planner, and it makes me feel in control once again.

Tomorrow's a holiday, so we have a long weekend ahead. I already finished all my assignments that are due next week, including the mind-boggling lab report. I'm done studying for the quizzes I have missed today, and I'm done studying for the quizzes next week.

Already, I feel calm. I have a long weekend to enjoy and with all the work finished, I wouldn't have to worry about school. Maybe tomorrow, I will study some more for the UPCAT and ACET. I have nothing to do so I might as well do something productive and beneficial.

I'm still praying fervently for St. Paul to shut down due to the AH1N1. I may have wrong motives, but I do have my reasons too.

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