Lately, I've been cautious with my actions and responses, hoping for a better perspective in life. I tried my best to treat everyone fairly. I am tired, drained, and exhausted.

I'm done studying for Physics and Economics, and all I have to do is study for French. Challenging, huh.

I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone, not even my family or my best friend. I feel drained and something's not right. I'm not really an introvert, but so far I've been acting like one. How utterly puzzling.

Sometimes, I just want to quit. I'm tired-- physically, mentally, and emotionally. I don't know who my real friends are nowadays, I don't know who I can bank on. My best friend doesn't go to school with me, and sometimes I wish that he and I were classmates so life'd be easier for me.

How ridiculous, I'm actually thinking that life would go easy on me. I feel uneasy whenever people would ask if I'm okay. The thing is, I'm never okay. I don't know how to respond. I just do my automatic reaction: to smile brightly and say 'Yes, I'm okay." Isn't that terrible? My life has been a mess, and I can't seem to understand it. I'm just really worn out.

I just want to move out to someplace quiet. To a place where people wouldn't find anything wrong with me, or judge me, or spread rumors about me.

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