I am really stressed out. I am cramming so much school work, because I'm leaving in a few days. Thankfully, I've finished running after all my teachers for requirements and contact information. At least a weight has been lifted off my heaving chest.

I honestly don't have time to think about my social problems right now. I'm focusing on my trip. I don't know what clothes to bring, and I am seriously not prepared. I feel slightly ambivalent, but I am definitely ecstatic. I can't wait to fly out of the Philippines and leave my problems behind, even just for awhile. I need a break, and more time for myself. I also need more time with my parents since they've been gone for an awfully long time.

I'm going to miss my friends though, my REAL friends (4D boys, and The Brotherhood: Joaquin, Tal, Liza, Shy, Kimmy, Bri, Anton, Mickey, Nigel, Chan, Kevin, Jake, Miggy, and Drei, and Jamie and the other M-Girls). I appreciate them, because despite my trials, they always welcomed me with open arms. Whenever I'm with them, I feel really accepted, because they are really nice to me, no strings attached. They gave me a chance to prove the other people wrong.

Even if I lost most of my school friends, at least I have the people I mentioned above. I am forever grateful, because the Lord has gifted me with unconditional people. I'd rather have a bajillion enemies, than to have friends who secretly hate you. That's just awful, and I wouldn't want to live in a lie.

That's the game of life. You have to learn to play by the rules. You win some, you lose some.

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